I feel extremely bad today. I think I'm having a really bad day and this SUCKS because it's the first day of the year. This isn't a good way to start and not really the best topic to talk about but it just sucks and I can't help but get it off my nerves.
Woke up (fine actually) with my cat biting off my remaining flesh away.
Got up and went straight to get my camera.
Went back to bed and viewed the photos taken the night before.
I got up again, now I went straight to the computer and uploaded the photos.
I heard my mother mumbling about new year and the house being dirty and us not keeping it clean.
It wasn't long though when I finished uploading the photos when my camera fell (HIGH) from on top of the lower bookshelf down the (HARD) floor--- broken.
I was like-- oh my. I'm dead.
And then I heard mother yelling at me and lecturing about how it fell and why the heck did I put the cam there when I should have placed it on a surface a little nearer from the floor, she did repeat that for like a hundred times plus one.
I felt bad about it, at me being stupid and about my mother being mad.
I KNOW RIGHT, it's all my fault.
Sometimes, SHIT HAPPENS.
This isn't actually about the camera being broken or me being stupid.
This is about WORTH.
That cam is worth thousands of pesos.
I felt bad, really. I was yelled at. I'm stupid.
Now, how much am I worth after that?
Maybe thousands less than that camera. That non-living camera that doesn't even know how to wash those dirty dishes. That non-living camera that doesn't even know what it feels like to be just a pathetic second rate trying hard, copycat.
HAPPY NEW YEAR. boom.