Thursday, January 6, 2011

WHAT NOW?



During times like this, I feel like sinking into the center of the Earth.
I feel so small, like I don't deserve to fit in anymore.
At times like this, thinking of death seems to be a lot easier.
I feel so dumb and scared and vulnerable and worthless...

REJECTION, was never a big word for me.
Things change, true.
You'll meet people who'll love to hate you.
You'll meet people who don't see you as someone special---
or someone worth talking too and that just breaks your heart. 
So how do I deal with this? 
How could I just let go of this feeling? move on?

I guess I just have to shed tears.
Maybe tomorrow I'll be fine.

...or some other day.